Our Gifts Are Just Loans
The Pharisees were people who relied on their own strength to be virtuous. Humility consists in knowing that in what we call 'I' there is no source of energy by which we can rise. Everything without exception which is of value in me comes…
The Pharisees were people who relied on their own strength to be virtuous.
Humility consists in knowing that in what we call 'I' there is no source of energy by which we can rise.
Everything without exception which is of value in me comes from somewhere other than myself, not as a gift but as a loan which must be ceaselessly renewed. Everything without exception which is in me is absolutely valueless; and, among the gifts which have come to me from elsewhere, everything which I appropriate becomes valueless immediately I do so.
Simone Weil from Gravity and GraceWeil is always profound and challenging. Here she is challenging the very notion that the self - in any respect - can even take its own qualities for granted. When I say 'this is me' or 'this is mine' I kill the very thing I try to hold on to. This thought has both political and spiritual consequences. If I accept that what I might take to me mine was in fact given to me, then I realise I can only use it by also giving it away. I cannot hold on to anything and I cannot look within me to find more. Everything comes to me from outside, and it can only be properly valued when we give it back again. This is also relevant to our social thinking. Some people claim that I am entitled to keep what I earn, what I own or what I am given. But of course I am entitled to nothing; we are given everything: our characters, our opportunities, our energies, our judgement. To claim, for instance, that I am entitled to more than some one else because I am cleverer than them is - from this perspective - perverse. We wrongly try to claim ownership of our intelligence as if that wasn't in fact also a gift, and then we also want the further gift of more money and power than someone else. This is what Weil means - by appropriating our gifts we make them valueless - they are just loans and they die if we do not give them back. This thought is also found in the Georgian, Shota Rustaveli's words:
What you've given away is yours.